I don't even know what's going on with me I just been thinking about some things. Like I never realized how dumb and weird I am.

I have no friends irl, none of my online friends except one person talks to me consistently and they're the only one who cares enough to even ask if I'm ok. Obviously I'm not ok but I don't even have a reason for this.

I live in perfect conditions, no one in my family is struggling ,I have no abusive shit or anything to be this fucked over.

Lately I just been constantly reminded of how fucking stupid I am and how much a waste of space and time I am. People try to help me but it's my own fault for not even accepting compliments anymore.

I hate my art I want to quit there's not even any use of this garbage shit account. I should just completed erase my entire existence ghost everyone and kill myself after. Soon enough this would be over for me and you won't ever have to deal with me again.

I fucked up really bad too because I spent my money on things I shouldn't have at my age and I don't even have a reason for any of this.

I don't even know what to do with myself anymore... My mind is so foggy I sometimes forget my own name, skip over words in sentences or even say the completely wrong thing.

I'm exhausted I don't even have an appetite anymore besides crap I don't need. I tried "coping" but nothing is working. I've tried drawing to keep my mind off these thoughts only to realize that I'll never be successful and I'm a fool to think I even had chance.

I'm sorry for just existing at this point. I can't fucking do this shit anymore guys. Have a good day/night y'all

Sorry this doesn't make much sence I just tried to jam pack everything into one post